15. Last Kiss
“It’s not fair…” Aine murmured harshly to himself, “Why… why did I… why did I fall in love again?”
He turned his head to the slumbering man beside him. Blonde locks fell on his gentle face, barely covering the man’s closed eyes. Natsuki was sleeping blissfully, not afflicted by the stress Aine was suffering. He was perfect at everything (save cooking), and handled everything with ease.
To Aine, this man was an Adonis; his gentle, perfect lover, Natsuki Shinomiya.
While Aine, himself, wasn’t perfect. He was a frail, depressing man, barely glued together and ready to shatter. How he ended up with Natsuki baffled him endlessly.
But he couldn’t go through with this anymore. Reality crashed down on him as a repeat of what was going to happen.
Yesterday, he had lost his main role in a upcoming drama for being too inefficient.
The other day, his show’s contract was ready to be terminated.
And last week, the company reported that his latest single had hit a record low.
Aine knew if he kept going down this path, he would fall again. Even worse, Natsuki’s career was on the line.
“Restraining love… embracing love…” Aine muttered sadly, “It doesn’t make a difference… Love always ruin everything for me.”
He thought back to his life-taking attempt years ago, when he tried to drown himself from all the stress.
He couldn’t do it this time. Killing himself would shatter Natsuki’s own career completely. Aine would go to hell before he would do that.
Sighing, he reached over to run his fingers through Natsuki’s hair, in an attempt to calm himself. He had one option left.
Aine would have to move on. Change agencies and work somewhere as far away as he could from Natsuki.
Slowly, their love would fade away.
Aine slapped his palm to his forehead, grinding his teeth in frustration It was selfish of him, but there was no other way. He had a dream to chase. And he wasn’t intending to kill himself this time.
Aine took one last good look at Natsuki’s beautiful, vulnerable state. Some part of him hoped, that no one else would see Natsuki like this other than himself. This secret was his forever.
He bent down to give the gentlest kiss possible to his lover’s lips. Aine shed one tear and it dropped on the other’s cheek.
“Goodbye, Natsuki. I’m sorry.”
And he spirited himself away.
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